I forgot this even existed. I’m not sure how, or why. It’s my name.net. How do you forget you have a .net? Well It’s a thing I did. I’m grateful that I remembered because I could really use a mind clearing outlet.

Today I’ve been pushed, pushed again, and pushed some more over items not in my control. I’ve had to stand my ground on something, and find a solution to make communication issues stop. Sometimes I forget this job use to be fun. Currently it’s a pain, not fun, and really- has me questioning why I’m still here.

I’ve been forced to go to Florida every 2 weeks because of poor planning by a PM. I’m spending money out of my personal pocket and being reimbursed for it later- and in some cases not in time for the next trip. When things go wrong- even though it’s not something on my end- I’m being blamed. I’m not a manager. I’m a simple Deployment rep. I am not the PM. I do not get paid to have the blame. Make me a manager- then push the blame here. I’m forced to do the travel because if I say no someone else can do my job. These are stresses I don’t need. I don’t want. I do like to travel but I don’t like having to pay out of pocket two weeks before I go somewhere- HUGE airfare, HUGE hotel rates- I get the company pays back but that I have to be prepared for up front.

BASICALLY it boils down to lack of communications, lack of correct personnel being involved, over expectations, and lack of resources in departments. There’s only 1 me. If I’m out there’s no deployment. I have 3-4 jobs that no one else knows how to do. That’s not how a corporation should run.

For now, this is what I need to get out of my system. ❤